It’s Time

“Pull that girl inside you that is hurting and put her on the chair beside you, and then … allow her to speak.”

I sat in our therapist’s office and couldn’t look at her. The tears roll down my cheeks as I remember her. I had no idea she was in there. And when I allowed her to speak, I couldn’t believe how much she was hurting. She’d been so fearful of what others thought … what if they didn’t like her? But worse … what if I didn’t?

That was 10 years ago. I’ve spent those 10 years working hard to heal the pain that had been silenced for so long, masked under every kind of emotion you can think of.

The book I worked on for the past 5 years arrived in the mail a few weeks ago. It’s about my search to become brave enough to be my authentic self. I don’t know if I’ll ever publish it. It was more of a tool, a 500-page tool. A document to show how God shows up in mighty ways. A reminder of how He places people in your life at the exact moment you need them and how He gives you the desires of your heart when you give Him complete trust.

It’s been quite the journey, but in the end, I found out how special that hurt little girl is. The words of pain she kept inside for so long … they could help others. And she isn’t so small. God created her on purpose for a purpose. So she isn’t sad anymore, at least not for long, because she has found comfort in hope.

As I reflect on the past 10 years, I’ve realized the painful parts were the best parts. And I’ve learned not to be scared of acknowledging the pain but to speak it, and give thanks for it. Because that is where the good stuff starts to grow. Allow yourself to feel what you feel. It’s okay. And then tell someone about it.

The picture above is in my writing studio. My gift from God. A secret space to go and write and study and meet with other women who have something inside them that needs to be heard as well. A safe space to speak and finally become the woman God created them to be. I love the clock … a reminder that we only have so much time here on Earth.

It’s time to give that hurt little girl inside you a voice.